First of all, it's the month of May. That alone has "busy" written all over it.
Secondly, it's the month of May of my senior year. Do you know what that means? That means that everything that usually happens in the month of May is happening for the very last time in my life: high school choir concerts, art festivals, talent shows, graduation parties, classes, tests, waking up at 9:50 to go to school at 10:00! The list goes on and on and on.... and my heart is crying to enjoy and soak up every moment that I can! I don't want to miss this - these moments in my life are so precious and before I know it, they are going to zip by. I don't want to waste my time waiting for something, and miss what's happening right now!
Thirdly, I now have two jobs and need to cram in as many possible hours in per week! I need a certain amount of money by September, and will definitely have extra but want to make sure I have more than enough "extra" to still have some when I come out on the other end in May 2012. I have no doubt God will continue to provide like He always does & promises. But part of His promise comes with me stewarding my blessings, what God actually literally dropped in my lap - two times now: two awesome jobs! God's so rad!
Fourthly... the things I do in my free time, when nobody is watching. This is my alone time with Papa. This is where I receive all the wisdom I need to go throughout the day. This is where He fans the flame in my soul. This is the place that we call the secret place. It's a place that has to be guarded, a place that has to be protected, and a place that has to be free. I have decided that this secret place is the fount where all my love, personality, joy, peace, and energy will overflow. I will not let anything else overflow into the secret place. When that starts happening, things start getting in the way of me and my most precious friendship with my Jesus. It takes only a minute to clear that up - but I long for consistency. Consistency and growth. In this time when I feel like my life is on steroids and I am pulled every which way, that time with Papa is the most important thing that I will not loose. He is my foundation, my hiding place. He gives me grace for every situation. Not just for me to do "okay" but for me to be superhuman through this month and beyond.
Knowing all that He asks of me is for me to be radically, fabulously loved. And no matter how the world shakes around me, the storms of life my pass through, but to be asleep in the arms of Papa - in perfect peace - resting in the Kingdom of Love.
I'm looking forward to seeing how He shines this month! Every day is a miracle! Papa - I am going to rest inside of You! Life going so fast...is actually a synch if you're jacked up the love of God, anyhow!
"Papa, I don't need to be everything, I just need to be yours. Because, to me, being yours is everything."
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