For the past three and a half months, since getting accepted to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, I have applied to over 30 places, followed up on about 15, been interviewed at 5, and received 0 job offers.
But through every application and no call-backs, I truly felt like God had something better for me and that it was going to drop in my lap really easily. I didn't believe this because I didn't want to try to get a job or because I was just making it up - I was willing to take anything to get to school next year, whether that was painting houses or whatever minimum wage would have me at -- anything to get to Bethel --any job was a good job. But I believed that God had something special for me that was worth waiting for. And obviously no one was hiring me, which was just confirming these feelings. So I really felt supernatural peace during these three months, even during the days when I would feel more of the job-need and bring it up with Him, He'd always say, "Wait... it's coming. Just trust in me...I got this."
"Getting peace that passes your understanding means giving up your understanding. Then your supernatural peace will come." (Bill Johnson).
Last week my Grandpa dropped by my home and vaguely told me, "My friend Rita has some scanning that needs to get done in her office. She might need you a couple afternoons and would pay you by the hour." It sounded kind of strange that someone just needed scanning done, but I thought, "Okay, well even a little money earned for a couple days would help." I called Rita, and she said, "Oh wonderful! Why don't you come in at 4:00 on Monday."
I got to the office thinking I was going to do my first few hours of scanning, earn a bit of money. I came in thinking I was the one doing a favor for someone else...haha.
I sat down in her office, and Rita asked me what I was interested in doing for a job, what kind of skills I have, and what my schedule looks like. I told her that I am "interested in and would take any job, my skills are writing, art, creative design, and communication skills, and that I am free every day of the week."
Then I told her, "I thought you just wanted me in here for scanning and the like...?"
She told me she was looking for someone who could do much more than that. She wanted an organizer, a planner... almost a secretary kind of person, who could be there every day and work full time in the summer. She looked at me and said, "We would love to have you here" and offered me the job. Of course, I told her "I would love to be here!" I then asked her, "What is the name of your company?" (I really did not have any idea, as I thought I was just going to drop in and out for a scanning job every now and then.) But she giggled and told me "We are Robinson Financial Group" - they help people figure out their finances and especially health insurance.
She told me the pay which is almost twice as much I would be getting at min. wage, she gave me flexible hours so I can still go to school and call in if I need a day off, and even said that I might get to do some traveling with her over the summer to some of her accounts.
She took the rest of the afternoon to explain to me what my job entails, which are all things I love and enjoy doing. I didn't know a bit about health insurance stuff, nor did I bring in my resume. I just brought in myself and she hired me.
The office itself is beautiful, my new desk is amazing, even the artwork paintings on the wall super nice. I would be 1 of about 7 on the team. She said she would even pay me for our interview time. Crazy! I also knew before hand that she was Christian, but after meeting her, we both had such a strong connection and know we both love Jesus. I told her how much an answer to prayer she was, and she said I was an answer to her prayer as well. We couldn't stop hugging at the end of our time - I didn't want to leave the office.
When I got back in the car and turned on the engine, the first lyrics to come on were "...your great love...your great love..." from the song What Would I have Done on Be Lifted High. His love was sooo real. I was just getting overwhelmed, filled, intoxicated with His Love.
And now I know... NOW and KNOW that I know that I know! ...that when God makes a promise, I can count on it. When Daddy God says, "I love to give beyond what you can ask or imagine" I believe it. When He says "For I know the plans I have for YOU, plans for you to prosper, to give you a hope and a good future!" it's legit!
I am learning to just receive and rest in His love. To walk out that supernatural trust. To not just "say" I trust Him, but to actually trust Him with my life, with every breath, every minute, every decision, the things I can and cannot see. He will walk us through the trust thing. He will in fact give us that trust and then the peace to make trusting easy. It's all by grace - Jesus paid the price not just for our sins but for us to be fully aware of the fullness of what Daddy has given us - to live in the abundance of Heavenly salvation.
Anyways, I am so stoked to start this job. My first one - haha, soo crazy but it's SOOOO Papa and He is pretty crazy and absolutely full of love. He is love. That is the only reason why I got this job. The song when I turned on the engine says it all:
"What would I have done if it wasn't for Your love? All for Love, my Jesus gave it all for Love, and I'm standing in the wonder of Your great love, Your great love..."
I want my heartbeat to be in exact rhythm with His, so that His heart becomes the way I feel, the way I see, the way I act, the way I think, the way I respond & the way I love. When our heartbeats are in sync with Him, we come to know the effortlessness of His heartbeat - the effortlessness of His love, joy, peace, righteousness & grace.
